I know everyday how blessed I am to have such a wonderful group of people that I call "family." I know beyond doubt that there will never be a day when my little family will go without a roof over our heads or food in our bellies, because there are so many wonderful people out there that would not let us go without. That is my family. I love them and I appreciate them, but sometimes having such a large family is hard.
A couple weeks ago one of my cousins passed away. He had been fighting for a couple years, and eventually his body gave up. He did not give up. His body needed peace and I know that in his passing he was able to find peace. It is hard to think of our family without Charlie there to make us laugh and smile.
Almost 2 years ago another one of my cousins passed away. She was young and vibrant and had a lot more life in her. Diane was a special person. She always made me feel special. Though I was a few years younger than her she never made me feel like I was just a kid. She had a beautiful smile and passed that on to her young Olivia. Her passing was sudden and tragic.
All but one of my grandparents have passed away. We have lost other cousins, aunts and uncles.
As wonderful as it is to have such a large family it also brings pain. And with the recent loss of Charlie, a bit of fear, because I know that in my lifetime I am going to lose many many people that I love. That I may not talk to everyday, but that make my life better just because they are alive and I know that they are there. It is truly scary to imagine, as the baby's baby, that I will quite possibly have to go through this time and again as my life moves forward.
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