Big Changes

Lillian, Hope, Jacob, Ryan, Chris, Holly... Big family undergoing big changes. Tomorrow I will be 28 weeks pregnant with Ryan. On Tuesday, January 15th I started having contractions and ended up in the hospital to have them stopped by medications. It was weird having something like that happen. I have always had a lot of Braxton Hicks contractions, but not like that day. It was all day. Several times an hour. When the midwife monitored me in the office she picked up 6 contractions in 30 mins. That is a lot! If they had been stronger it would have been a good labor pattern, but they weren't and Ryan and I are still safely bonded together. It was weird going through it, but I wasn't fearful. God gave me peace and I knew everything would be ok. So far so good. 

We now have about 12 weeks, at most, to get things ready for his arrival. That isn't long at all! Time passes so quickly now. I'm happy to be pregnant and not in a hurry for it to be over with, which seems to make the time pass even faster than before. 

We started working around the house getting things in order. The first order of business was to split the girls up. They have shared a bedroom since Hope was born. They share everything! Toys, tv, movies, bedroom.... Everything! Lilli started to express an interest in having her own room and so last weekend we split them up and for the first time ever they are in separate rooms with their own tv's, their own clothes, their own toys...Everything separate. 

I was so worried about how they would do, but it's not them that has had any trouble with it. To me it is so weird to see them apart. It is so weird that they have grown enough that my little girls need their own space...away from one another. How did we get here? How did my babies turn into girls? And how are my girls growing up enough to need space from one another? 

I think that because of divorcing Ron, moving in with my parents, and then marrying Chris there is a division in my life. Everything is so much different than it was when they were born and when they were little girls. Sometimes it makes it feel like it was a different life, but it is all part of my life, and those same two little girls that were with me through it all are now two big girls making changes and growing on their own. AMAZING!